We are now full swing into the holiday craziness. It can be a whirlwind of get togethers, shopping, and family. I love this season for the beauty and togetherness, but it can be a very stressful time. Between worrying about how to pay for the gifts I want to get people, to how to fit in all of the events and get togethers, to spending a lot of time with family who all know how to push my buttons it can be a lot. That's why I am glad that the holidays start with Thanksgiving and I hope everyone took a minute to think about all of the things that they are grateful for this year. Dwelling on my gratitude makes all of the stress easier to deal with somehow.
I was reminded this week of how comforting it can be to reach out to a loved one when you are stressed/scared/overwhelmed. I'm a big fan of meditation and I have a tendency to try to make myself better. I got some bad news about a loved one this week and after spending a lot of time trying to calm myself down, I reached out and let someone comfort me. What a great reminder that I don't need to struggle alone.
I am notoriously bad at following through with things. My house is littered with projects that I start and then either get tired of, frustrated with, or just forget about. The list of things that I should do today is long and the list of things that will actually get done probably not that long. However, I am trying to be less critical of myself and more accepting of my flaws. So, while I have no idea how this blog is going to go, I am trusting that it will be just what it is supposed to be. Trusting feels like a step for me towards being more self-accepting and less self-critical. Trust in myself to recognize the things that are important, trust in my friends to remind me of things that are important, and trust in the universe to provide me with what I need. It sounds so simple and yet can be so hard. So, I will trust that I don't need to see the whole picture, just this first step.