I have been an avid fan of yoga for the past 15 years. You would think that after practicing for that long, I'd be super flexible and strong. And you'd be wrong. I have some physical limitations that keeps my left side very tight. Yoga keeps me more balanced, but there are simply postures that I can not do. Usually when the teacher cues a posture that I can't do, I get frustrated and do something else. Even though I'm actually physically doing a different posture, I normally become annoyed with the teacher, the class, the world. Especially if the teacher strings two or three postures together that I can't do. I'm not sure what was different today, but the teacher cued something that I couldn't do and as I was standing in mountain pose instead, I found myself feeling grateful. I really WANTED to do mountain pose. And while the teacher would have been fine with me doing that even if I could do what she cued, I don't think I would have given myself permission to do what I wanted to do if I had been able to do what she cued. So, today, my limitations felt like a gift because it allowed me to give myself permission to simply do what I wanted. Of course, it didn't last and the next time she cued something that I could almost do, I got frustrated again, but my mind kept coming back to the gratitude. So, for today I am grateful for the things that I can't do.
Valentine's day is not just a day to celebrate our relationship, it can also be a reminder to those not in one that they are single. So, I hope that those of you who are not in a relationship take the opportunity to get together with friends and remind yourself that you are loved, even if not romantically. And here is an excellent article on how to create lasting relationships. http://www.masslive.com/news/index.ssf/2015/02/area_therapist_kerry_lusignans.html#incart_river
I am going through a lot of change in my life right now. My business is new, I am moving, those are just two off the bigger things that I am dealing with. And many days I feel so overwhelmed that I just want to stay in bed and ignore it all. I try to remind myself that I am not alone and instead of curling up into a ball, I try to reach out and let people support me. It isn't a panacea, but it does often give me the strength to take one more step. It is a constant struggle to do it differently, but I have faith that, if nothing else, doing it differently will take me somewhere new.
We all have endless lists of things that we should do. Things that our spouse needs us to do, things for our children, things for work, the house, etc. And the thing that consistently gets pushed to the bottom of the list is what we need for ourselves. I don't know why we expect to be able to take care of everyone else when we aren't taking good care of ourselves, but we all seem to do it. So, I encourage everyone, including myself, to take 5 or 10 minutes today to do something just for us. It can be a hot bath, asking for a back rub, reading a book, whatever brings you pleasure and recharges your batteries. I plan on taking care of myself by making time for a yoga class today. Namaste!